NOTE: Spent a fair amount of time staring at this photo from Rosetta. And got to writing again.
“Now,” Milson said, “for this cause I know that man is
nothing, which thing I never had supposed.”
There was a crackle of static, followed by silence broken
only by the sounds of each man and woman breathing.
“But now mine own eyes have beheld God,” Milson continued,
his voice sounding far away though he was near to hand. “But not my natural,
but my spiritual eyes, for my natural eyes could not have beheld.”
Shadows shifted swiftly on the walls of the valley as the
wanderers stood in silence.
He turned to Captain Russo. Russo could not see Milson’s
face – the glare shields on their space suits were down; in Milson’s all he
could see was his own helmeted reflection.
“Who art thou?” Milson asked. “For behold, I am a son of
God, in similitude of his only begotten; and where is thy glory, that I should
worship thee?”
Russo shifted uncomfortably.
Milson continued, not moving. “For behold, I could not look
upon God, except his glory should come upon me, and I were transfigured before
him. But I can look upon thee in the natural man. Is it not so, surely?”
“Milson –“
“I – I’m sorry,” Milson said after a long silence. “I’m
feeling a little overwhelmed by all of this.”
Elsewhere on the surface of the comet, breathing continued.
“I know you’re used to me being quiet, being the quiet one,”
he continued. “But walking here, standing here . . . I had to say something.”
“Would you mind,” Captain Russo asked, “saying it not so
loudly? You’ve got a few people a bit nervous here.”
“I’m sorry,” Milson said. “But I’d like to continue.”
Silence from the inhabitants of the comet.
“God,” Milson said into the darkness, in a whisper over the
radio, as the distant sun shot its course through the black sky overhead. “Tell
me, I pray thee, why these things are so, and by what thou madest them?”
“I’ve had about enough of this,” Varney growled.
There was no echo of assent, other than the crackle of
cosmic rays over the frequency.
“And behold,” Milson continued, “the glory of the Lord was
upon Moses, so that Moses stood in the presence of God, and talked with him
face to face. And the Lord God said to Moses: For mine own purpose have I made
these things. Here is wisdom and it remaineth in me. And worlds without number
have I created; and I also created them for mine own purpose, and by the Son I
created them, which is mine Only Begotten.”
Shadows crept through the canyon’s arroyos, up one side and
down the other like quicksilver.
“But only an account of this earth, and the inhabitants
thereof, give I unto you,” Milson continued. “For behold, there are many worlds
that have passed away by the word of my power. And there are many that now
stand, and innumerable are they unto man; but all things are numbered unto me,
for they are mine and I know them.”
There was a long sigh, followed by Varney’s voice. “You’re
not one of those nuts who insists the Earth is only six thousand years old, are
you?”
“I am one of those nuts,” Milson said, “who believes there
is other intelligent life in the universe. I am one of those nuts who believes
it is not all an accident. I am one of those nuts who clings to religion not
because I’m scared of science, but because I believe God himself is a
scientist, tinkering with comets and stars and the dust of the cosmos much as
we tinker with atoms.
“Do you believe Moses parted the Red Sea?” Varney asked.
Milson looked from one wall of the canyon to the other.
Stars above whirled by, birthed by the lip of the canyon one minute, swallowed
by the other lip the next.
“I believe we are the children of Israel, in all their
ignorance and stubbornness and promise,” Milson said. “Not destined to the fate
of the Egyptians who perished when the parted sea came together again.”
“I’m sorry I have a narrow point of view,” Milson said after
a while, after no one spoke and the sound of marching and breathing once again
came over the radio as the travelers walked through the canyon, moving around
tumbled boulders and easing their way up and down the sides of gullies and
through the powder of the comet’s surface. “I’ve studied the Buddhist cosmology,
with its world and its gods and goddesses. I know I’m not alone in such
thinking. I’m just most familiar with these scriptures, which my father read to
me the nights we came home at three or four am, after hours spent staring
through his telescope at the stars. We had to go into the foothills east of
town, down in one of the dells far from the lights of the city and set up our
telescope on a camp table. Our backyard was too light for the Perseids, the
other meteor showers. But in the foothills we could gaze up to see the band of
the Milky Way and count the stars. Count the stars!”
“And on the way home,” Milson continued, “we’d stop at the
crest of the last hill on Lincoln Road, where we could see the lights of the
city – three cities – below.”
“’The lights below reflect the stars above,’ my father would
say. ‘Never think,’ he would add, looking from the valley floor to the sky
above, ‘that we are alone. Some little boy, on a distant world, is looking up
into the sky and seeing our sun, perhaps in the constellation they call the
Gronkle after some beast on their world, wondering if there’s another little
boy looking up at him. Look at the stars,’ my father said, ‘and wave.’”