Monday, March 2, 2015

Who Reads Ebooks? Well This Guy. And Lots of Books I Wouldn't Read Otherwise

Funny things happen when you start reading ebooks.

You read a lot of books you wouldn’t pick up ordinarily, for starters.

The latest ebook rabbit hole I’ve fallen down started with Washington Irving. I wanted to read his take of The Legend of Sleepy Hollow, shortly after I got this song from the Disney animation of that tale stuck in my head.

I read the story. Then I decided I wanted to read more Washington Irving.

Now for the past two weeks I’ve been reading Irving’s The Adventures of Captain Bonneville. It’s a book I’ve been aware of for years, but never picked up to read because I didn’t have a copy readily available (and remember my physical book reading habits include reading mostly books I can buy at the local thrift stores I haunt). But when I picked up the collection that had Sleepy Hollow in it, I picked up a few more free ebooks from Amazon while I was there, including Captain Bonneville.

Why read Captain Bonneville?

I live in a county named for him, for one. And he spent time exploring this part of Idaho (and all around the Pacific Northwest) when the only ones there were the natives. Where better to go for a glimpse of what the place was like? And in particular I’m fascinated with his descriptions of the lava fields in the Arco desert, the place where I work and where I enjoy hiking just due to the strangeness of the terrain. So says Bonneville/Irving:

Here, however, occur some of the striking phenomena of this wild and sublime region. The great lower plain which extends to the feet of these mountains is broken up near their bases into crests, and ridges resembling the surges of the ocean breaking on a rocky shore.

In a line with the mountains the plain is gashed with numerous and dangerous chasms, from four to ten feet wide, and of great depth. Captain Bonneville attempted to sound some of these openings, but without any satisfactory result. A stone dropped into one of them reverberated against the sides for apparently a very great depth, and, by its sound, indicated the same kind of substance with the surface, as long as the strokes could be heard. The horse, instinctively sagacious in avoiding danger, shrinks back in alarm from the least of these chasms, pricking up his ears, snorting and pawing, until permitted to turn away.

We have been told by a person well acquainted with the country that it is sometimes necessary to travel fifty and sixty miles to get round one of these tremendous ravines. Considerable streams, like that of Godin's River, that run with a bold, free current, lose themselves in this plain; some of them end in swamps, others suddenly disappear, finding, no doubt, subterranean outlets.

Opposite to these chasms Snake River makes two desperate leaps over precipices, at a short distance from each other; one twenty, the other forty feet in height.

The volcanic plain in question forms an area of about sixty miles in diameter, where nothing meets the eye but a desolate and awful waste; where no grass grows nor water runs, and where nothing is to be seen but lava. Ranges of mountains skirt this plain, and, in Captain Bonneville's opinion, were formerly connected, until rent asunder by some convulsion of nature. Far to the east the Three Tetons lift their heads sublimely, and dominate this wide sea of lava -- one of the most striking features of a wilderness where everything seems on a scale of stern and simple grandeur.

Aside from this description of one of my favorite places to hike, I enjoy reading the book because of its odd narrative nature. Typical of the time, it’s told in third person (today anyone worth their salt who paid for such an explorer’s maps and journals would certainly use the first person). Irving does quote the captain occasionally. I’d be curious to see the original source documents, just to see if Irving was too concerned with abridging the journals or if Bonneville merely only made a few jottings of each step of the journey. Given Irving’s ear in his other tales, I’m convinced without much other evidence that it’s the latter. Probably roaming the plains and mountains doesn’t give one a lot of time for writing. Much is the pity.

If there’s one thing this book could use is a map. There are plenty of “antique” maps out there, including some drawn by Bonneville himself, but I need one that shows this journey. It’s very convoluted, and in some cases reveals my ignorance of regional geography. Having a map on which to follow his voyages would be helpful. Can’t tell you how many times I referred to Tolkein’s map of Middle Earth the first few times I went through The Fellowship of the Ring.

So there are two reasons I’m reading this book: One, for the Hey I Live Here aspect, and the other is I’m looking for inspiration as I revise The Hermit of Iapetus, my own book of virgin exploration and misery and woe and imaginary miniature-cow-riding squirrels. That’s the next project once Doleful Creatures is finished.

Friday, February 27, 2015

Doleful Creatures, Round Six. Here We Go.

NOTE: Thus starts the sixth revision to DOLEFUL CREATURES. Hopeful six is the charm. But I feel a good distance from the story, and that'll help. I keep thinking about it, with nagging little things coming to my mind as I'm in the shower or washing dishes or whatever. That tells me this is still a good story. So slowly I turn . . . 

Chapter One: The Pain Goes Deep

Something in my mind has stored the screams.

This thing brings the screams out in the night and darkness, in the pale light and lightning strike, and polishes them, leering, as I try to forget. “Everything good you’ve done,” it says, “is stained with those screams. Why don’t you die?”

Behind the voice in my head, I hear her laughing. The Lady with the golden hair. She laughs at my misery.

I see by your face you know what I mean.

Do you know they say most leaders aren’t the best-suited in the group to lead, or the most intelligent? Most leaders are the first who speak up. Who notice something wrong, or that something needed to be done, and gets so sick of waiting for the others to take action that they take action themselves even though there are others in the group better suited to handle the occasion?

And the others follow.

Oh, they will bicker. They will point out the flaws in leadership of their leader. But they listen to their fears, and the demons inside who bring out their own special memories for a polish.

I spoke up first.

And I led them to bloody disaster, for which . . .

I should have kept my beak shut.

So I come here to perch on this rock, and I try to forget. Sometimes the singing of the other birds, the sunlight, brings me back. Back to where maybe I can lead again.

I’m here a lot when the sun shines.

Never at night.

That’s when the thing in my mind finds the screams again and makes them loudest, makes them echo and repeat and accompanies them with flashes of death, the gurgling of drowning souls, the smell of wet fur and moldy leaves and the near silent slup-slup of still water lapping against the logs of lodges no one will enter again.

I don’t want anyone else to have to hear the screams. So I try to fix things.

Most days, the screams are all the thanks I get.

The Purdys are going to lose the farm. They haven’t brought in a crop – decent, fair, or poor – in three years. The money’s gone. Yank’s a beak’s breadth from joining the navy, and Pa Purdy is delirious at the thought of losing him yet fearful he’ll be lost if he doesn’t go. So he’s letting him go, if he wants it.

Late at night, he hears his own screams inside his head, I know it. I’ve seen his eyes as he stares out the window over the farm to the mountains yonder. His eyes are where his screams are loudest.

So what if the farm is sold, many ask. So what if Purdy leaves and another comes in? We are all creatures beholden to nature. If the trees die and the grass withers from drought, we adapt. We flee. We die and He who notes the fall of a single sparrow welcomes us home and sends others in our place once the rains return and the grass is renewed.

So what if the farm is sold? So what if another comes in?

I know there is no such thing as stasis. It will never be an endless summer. Winter will come. And in the cold of winter, in the mugginess of summer, in the dark, in the light, in the rain and the snow and the heat, the screams will still be there, will still come with friends. Life goes on. There is no stasis.

But there is consistency.

Up where the canyon forms a box, where the creek tumbles down a waterfall, there is a jumble of rocks on the cliffside. From the right angle, they resemble a man with a long, snubbed nose. A clump of grass grows from a nostril, and he has a cap of buttercups and violets. One of his eyelids is chipped, revealing lighter grey stone to contrast with the darker stone of his skin. He has been there as long as I know it, and for many years before that, as I know my father showed it to me as his father showed it to him as his father showed it to him as well.

Consistency. The promise that when the screams come they will also go after a time, and that there are things you can do to make them go away faster. And that once they’ve gone again you can go to the mouth of the canyon and whisper to the man in the rocks, whisper to him about the screams in your head and, after a while, he talks to you.

“Tell me one more time,” the man in the rock says, “about those screams.”

I tell him. Because he is not The Lady. Because when I tell him the pain and the screams go away for a time and I can feel the warmth of the sun and food has its flavor once again. I trust him and know he will not tell anyone else.

He says what he hears flows through the rock and into the cliff and drips and trickles and squeezes through cracks to become part of the earth, which remembers all it hears but tells no one and forgives all. That is a comforting thing. Perhaps, when the earth recalls the story of the box canyon and the beavers and hears The Lady tell it, the earth will also hear my witness and hold a small part of its enormous heart open to the magpie who tried and failed to help others find the joy we have been promised.

The joy. It seems so long that I’ve searched for it. But the man in the rock says it is there. He can feel it within the roots and rocks and grass and water. He says I will find it, and it will find me.

But I talk, and the pain flows from those screams and makes my heart thump-lump and I feel cold despite the sun.

But as I talk, I hear her voice. The calm, quiet, lovely voice. I hear the swish of her wings as she flies overhead, not looking over her wing at me but coaxing me to follow. And I do. I follow those black wings with the white tips, and watch as the sunlight changes the black of the feathers to green to purple to blue then to green again. Oh, how I flew to keep after her. Then she lands and with the momentum of her flight carrying her forward, she loosens her grip on the wire or the branch enough to spin once around and when she is at the bottom of her spin she sees me and screams my name and then at the top she tightens her grip and stops her spin and spreads her tail feathers and waits for me to alight beside her.

Oh, when I think of her like that, the screams leave. They pour into the rock and the man in the rock takes them in and locks them up in the rock deep down, deep inside, deep underneath the earth. And though I still recall the screams, they sear less. They sear enough for me to know I don’t want to hear them again in the flesh; loud enough to goad me into action when I see new screams might arise.

That is why I lead. It is selfish, I suppose, in a way.

I don’t want to hear the screams again.

When I think of her the screams leave and time slows down. It has to slow down because if I let my memories of her scroll on, too quickly we arrive at the time of the screams and I know I will see her leave me again, a cold, broken body on the shore of a beaver pond amidst the other bodies and the darkness will descend once again.

The apex and the bottom of the pit, so juxtaposed.

I love that man in the rock.

He never makes me listen to the screams in his head.

I’ve tried to tell Aloysius this. But Aloysius is stubborn, as badgers are. As a family they keep the screams fresh. I think that is why they are unpleasant.

I’m sorry to tell you all this. I’m sure Aloysius didn’t warn you about that at all.

Thursday, February 26, 2015


Opus, of course, was right all along.

We are oversensitive. We take offense where none is intended, we rail over offense and roil in a burning desire to not forgive when offense was meant. We overreact.

But what a world we live in.

In the wake of the Charlie Hebdo shootings we really (myself included) for free speech rights. Then that gets warped into the right to offend – and a feigned righteous indignation when our right to speak offends someone else.

Offense against religion is supposed to be tolerated; those who get offended when their religion is slighted are just supposed to ignore it, as treating another’s beliefs with respect is to bow to the other’s right to spout whatever vile thing pops into their head. (The Charlie Hebdo shootings are, of course, a gross overreaction to offense, but that does not erase the fact that eyes were deliberately poked.)

Offense against culture, however, is not to be taken lightly. Pope Francis, deriding the “Mexicanization” of drug trafficking in his native Argentina has caused great offense and umbrage that is causing great consernation and hubbub. Sean Penn’s lame joke about who gave Mexican director Alejandro Gonzalez Inarritu his green card is causing all sorts of hand-wringing, as is the fact that recipients of Academy Awards this year don’t represent a cross-spectrum of enough races to keep the offended folks happy.

That’s the stuff that’s supposed to get us all riled up and protesting and angry and, well, offended.
But I, a religious fellow, am supposed to take the high road when the writer of a Broadway musical thinks it’s amusing to have my holy book shoved up someone’s butt. Hee hee, look at the free speech rights, trumping your stupid religious sensitivities.

And that’s fine. I exercise my religious sensitivities by not seeing the musical. You’ve left me the high road free and clear, bub, and I thank you for it.

No offense taken – though offense was meant.

When is A Ban Not A Ban?

UPDATE: A day after the non-ban ban was announced, Google caved in. Pornography will still be allowed on its Blogger platform, but the company will double its efforts to stop those using their sites to sell porn. So the spineless ban lives up to its spineless name.

As with most things, the devil is in the details.

While I applaud Google’s move to “ban” pornography from its blogging platform Blogger, getting into the details show that ban isn’t really a ban.

There appears to be a ban or limitation on new sites created after March 23, 2015, per the Google announcement

For any blogs created after March 23, 2015, we may remove the blog or take other action if it includes content that is sexually explicit or shows graphic nudity as explained in our content policy.

Checking their content policy finds this:

Adult Content: Do not distribute sexually explicit content or graphic depictions of nudity. Do not drive traffic to commercial pornography sites.

If your blog contains non-sexually explicit content that is still adult in nature, please mark it as 'adult' in your Blogger settings. We may also mark blogs with adult content where the owners have not. All blogs marked as 'adult' will be placed behind an 'adult content' warning interstitial. If your blog has a warning interstitial, please do not attempt to circumvent or disable the interstitial - it is for everyone’s protection.

That appears to be a ban.

However, per Google’s announcement, blogs that currently are home to explicit content won’t be purged. They’ll be grandfathered in and made private:

If your existing blog does have sexually explicit or graphic nude images or video, your blog will be made private after March 23, 2015. No content will be deleted, but private content can only be seen by the owner or admins of the blog and the people who the owner has shared the blog with.

Google is being showered with praise for its anti-pornography efforts, and rightly so. But it seems in this particular circumstance, they’re still content to host pornography as long as no innocent eyeballs can stumble across it. Google’s motto in this case seems less “Do No Evil” and more “You Can’t Shake the Devil’s Hand and Say You’re Only Kidding.”

Monday, February 23, 2015

Dottie Update: Tail Wag

Early last weekend, after a good long nap with her mom, Dottie gave us both a vigorous tail wag when she woke up and saw us in the room with her.

That’s enormous progress. “Nothing could replace that tail-wag,” my wife said. It was heartening movement from a dog who lost use of her hind legs about three weeks ago.

Thanks to a good friend whose hobby is dachshund rehabilitation, we’ve started Dottie on daily bouts of physical therapy, moving her crippled joints through their range of motion two to three times daily, helping her preserve that muscle memory she’ll need if the nerves ever start to fire again – and seeing that tail wag certainly is an indication that healing continues.

She also wants to wrestle, though we’re being careful with that so she doesn’t re-injure her back. Nevertheless, to see her roll over on her back and bite playfully at our fingers is a good sight to see, brief as we keep the encounters. She wants that normal life and is doing what she can to get it.